Monday, March 19, 2018

I might have forgotten how to write...

so I better write something just to make sure.

Today I was thinking one main thought:
Life happened, and I answered. Or, Life spoke, and I spoke back. Or, Stuff happened, and I gave stuff back.
All I know is, I responded to what Life said and did to me.
It’s good.

I’m still against the world, that won’t change, until Jesus comes and makes everything good.

I also think the most important and best thing a person can ever think or say, is that Jesus is Lord, and His Word is the best thing the earth has.
Everything else out of our hearts, thoughts, and mouths is trivial. Also, I’ve come to the conclusion that I’ve said and created a whole lotta junk, and I regret not focusing on God more in all of it.

Also, I’ve decided that I’m a mess, and have been all along, and I hope anyone who’s known me, and possibly been hurt or confused by me, can forgive me.

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So, that being said, here’s my update-  I still can’t stand up, or walk. Still very happily married and living simply near the beach, although it’s difficult to get to, have you ever tried to roll a wheelchair through sand? So David pushes me to the end of the boardwalk thing in the chair, where I climb down, and scoot on my butt to the water. It’s funny, and I’m funny looking, but I don’t care.

Not really much else to talk about, things are very slow and plain. Nothing exciting going on. I have a little garden on my deck, in which the tiger lilies are blooming just as of today. We have palm trees in the yard, and aloe plants. See, I told you nothing exciting was going on, this is the extent of my excitement. I’m home all the time.

I’ve become the most boring person ever, and I feel good about it. No pressing issues or impossible challenges, no burning stress, no hanging by this thread or that. No cliff I’m about to fall off. Nothing. Just... everyday life. Sometimes I struggle with my uneventful reality. Often, I don’t know what to do with myself. I try to start my day with prayer, and after that, it’s a matter of peaceful living. I have to make an effort to just live normally. My mind, it remembers...

I just live in the here & now, and wonder how long things are going to go on like this - normally, safely, peacefully.

I suppose that’s all I know for now.

Here’s a compilation thing containing some of the videos I’ve made over the years-
https://archive.org/details/fav-anything3


Love,
Amy
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